Tita Flor and TIto Ben

I had the pleasure of seeing my Tita Flor and Tito Ben two weeks ago. They came to visit to my mom and Dad, who are both interred in St. James the Great Parish within the village. Tita Flor and my mom have been best friends since their dentistry school days. I know that Tita Flor was my mom’s favorite person. During the pandemic, they would do a video call every week.   I can sympathize with how heartbroken Tita Flor must have been when Mom died three years ago.

I find it remarkable that Tita Flor and Tito Ben, at 90 years old, could still travel from Los Angeles to Manila. However, they are not as strong as they once were. When I saw them, Tito Ben looked rather frail, and Tita Flor needed a cane. What I admire about them is that they still have a good memory of the little things. They also have no issues with their short-term memory. They visited last year as well, so I was surprised that they came again this year. I feel sad at the thought that this might be their last visit unless they have someone to accompany them. I have known Tita Flor and Tito Ben to be very independent because of their long stay in the US. They always do everything by themselves. Perhaps that is one reason why they are physically and mentally fit. It would be a blessing if they could visit us again. It is always nice to listen to their stories from the old days when they and my mom were young.

A Possibility

After my last partner passed away in 2016, I've been hesitant about diving into another relationship. You see, that previous relationship wasn't a positive experience -— it revolved around financial issues. But I won't delve into the details. Before that, I fell for someone who didn't reciprocate my feelings. So now, I'm wary of getting emotionally involved with anyone. Especially since my parents have passed away, and I'm living independently, I feel the need to protect myself.

Currently, I'm seeing someone. Well, I THINK I'm seeing someone.  He's a bit older than I am, kind-hearted, and financially stable. He's nice, but I don't feel that romantic spark with him like how I felt with my exes.   Perhaps I've become jaded or learned my lesson —- these days, I don't easily develop feelings for anyone. It's been seven years since I felt that way about someone. However, I can envision a future with him. I've mentioned that I'm seeking a companion, and he seems to fit that role. We spend time together, talk a lot, go out for dinners, and share cuddle moments.

While I'm uncertain where this will lead to, I genuinely appreciate his company. I know I shouldn't base life decisions on zodiac signs, but, interestingly, I'm a Cancer and he's a Pisces, and our signs supposedly match. Although we're not officially in a relationship and haven't defined exclusivity in dating, we're both chill about it. Still, I maintain my emotional boundaries -— we shouldn't feel pressured to get serious. 

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